Tense. Intensified. Fear.
How am I supposed to conccentrate with everyone suppressing their fear of their Chinese O level results.
So, I didnt conentrate well today, or say, wasnt listening at all. Not that I know of.
Anyway, lessons are... like what 've said earlier.
The whole thing worsen when Ms Tang brought up the " we're gonna take our results' mood.
She totally did. The class was in absolute silence,at least for a few seconds.
I wonderghow the higher mother tongue studentsfelt seeing us take our results.
To me, i already had in mind it's should be a B3. Consider the fact that the oral question wasnt easy for me, especially that particular one i did.
Fancy saying that recent topics won't be out. I got tricked uh! So i wasnt prepared for it.
And Shirui? She was saying how difficult it was , then she repeated what she said to the examiner to us.She call that difficult when what she said was like something she expected.
Can she like feel how is it like for the others?
I don't know, people nowadays just say this and this,yet never true to what they said.
At least for her.
Nevermind, i got over with it since that's how she is. Everytime, not just once.
That's why i dread talking about exams with her. Well, i try my best not to.
Anyway, yeah, i got a B3. Wasnt suprising to me. I was expecting that anyway.
Yet, i felt emotions being suppresed within me after i got my results.
I was trying my very best not to cry.
I knew it wasnt because of my results. I seriously knew it.
It was because Mdm Taysaid " 开心了哦."
For that moment, I shun away from her eyes and walked away as soon as I know my results.
I know compared to the others who got usually got distinctions, my chinese isnt there.
But i know i could at the very least get a A2 right?
She was in satisfactory of a B3 for me. I'm utterly upset with her.
Also, partially it wasnt up to my expectations.
So it's alright. At least I've another chance. This has taught me to pick myself better.
Look i bold this " I'M ALRIGHT!"
okay, i'm done.
If not, later this personwill say he didnt see carefully and ask me whether i'm alright, this and that.==
So. Althought i'm alright, i'm not alright with the teacher.
Even it takes me to retake my exams and whatsoever, I will do all her assigned work for my own sake, not cause she asked to do it.
Hear this?
okay. I'm trying my best to remain my calmness.
Yeah. coooooool.
extinguish!
bye!
I'll ignore the fact that she's the one teaching.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Sunday, August 10, 2008
The Games
2 days after olympics opening ceromony...
Anyone feel the intensified mood of the althetes yet?
Well maybe if you dont follow the games closely, you wont.
But for me, i could say that i'm suitably impressed with the results of the althetes and the spectacular display for the opening ceromony whether is it visually or emotionally.(visually as for us. and emotionally as for the performers)
What was disappointing to me was that the performers that did the routine, when each indiviual countries were called upon, didnt quite persist on their energy level.
It kind of faded until China was called.
Hey I'm not trying to put any kind of statement here ,but that was just my opinion of them.
Since they're performing for such a grand occassion,focused by people from all over the world , I thought that wasnt the kind of standard it should have or so.
Anyway, moving on.
My eyes set upon the gymnastics portion instead of the one that most would be noticing, Table Tennis.
Well, perhaps it's affinity?
The moment when I switch over to channel 601, it was just there, how could i resist it when they were performing or rather competing so beautifully.
Or could it be that i was nearly like one of them?
I was in my primary school where wehada short period where our physcial education period was converted to a gymnastics class.
primary 2 i suppose?
I hope I remember it correctly.
They did some selection after a few rounds of lessons or trials- this may be more appropriate as it could possibly be what they're eyeing for-.
Suprisingly, i was one of them. A Gymnastic school? And I get to skip lessons in the afternoon.
For a kid as young as 8 years old, perhaps it could be both good and bad news for her.
Shegets to try something new yet she didnt get to see her friends.
Anyway, i got away from it since i misplacedthe important document that was supposed to be given to them. So in the end, i didnt even turn up for a single lesson.
But well, on the bright side, i wouldnt havehugemuscles and broad shoulders like them, or I may not even be in jurong secondary school today now, with so much memories that i wouldnt want to miss out on.
Moving on.
China's leading and should anyone have any doubt about that?
Maybe you did have, but i saw that coming.
I saw the men preliminaries. I thought i liked the guy from japan. He really stunned me when he was on the Pommel Horse.
Suchcleanmovements! Moreover, his single leg work are very distinct. You could see so clearly that his legs are higher than 90 degrees unlike some who were brushing near the pommel horse, well, they didnt do too well obviously.Nevertheless, he did a terrible mistake.
Losing his momentum, it's difficult to score well .
Oh! There was another! From china i think?
I fare pretty well on the parallel bars.
16.125 was his score if i remember correctly, maybe higher.
Well, did have mistakes so obvious that a - i dont know anything about this at first- know that he did one.
But his routine was stunningly amazing. Now, i didnt regret putting my books aside for awhile to watch the games. It's worthwhile.
Yeah. Disappointments here and there, but you never know whether it's the the pushing factor for you huh?
Oh! I going to catch my next round of gymnastics on the television. Oh! The tennis as well.
Why golf isnt counted!?
Pardon me. ==
Okay! Got to go! Bye!
Anyone feel the intensified mood of the althetes yet?
Well maybe if you dont follow the games closely, you wont.
But for me, i could say that i'm suitably impressed with the results of the althetes and the spectacular display for the opening ceromony whether is it visually or emotionally.(visually as for us. and emotionally as for the performers)
What was disappointing to me was that the performers that did the routine, when each indiviual countries were called upon, didnt quite persist on their energy level.
It kind of faded until China was called.
Hey I'm not trying to put any kind of statement here ,but that was just my opinion of them.
Since they're performing for such a grand occassion,focused by people from all over the world , I thought that wasnt the kind of standard it should have or so.
Anyway, moving on.
My eyes set upon the gymnastics portion instead of the one that most would be noticing, Table Tennis.
Well, perhaps it's affinity?
The moment when I switch over to channel 601, it was just there, how could i resist it when they were performing or rather competing so beautifully.
Or could it be that i was nearly like one of them?
I was in my primary school where wehada short period where our physcial education period was converted to a gymnastics class.
primary 2 i suppose?
I hope I remember it correctly.
They did some selection after a few rounds of lessons or trials- this may be more appropriate as it could possibly be what they're eyeing for-.
Suprisingly, i was one of them. A Gymnastic school? And I get to skip lessons in the afternoon.
For a kid as young as 8 years old, perhaps it could be both good and bad news for her.
Shegets to try something new yet she didnt get to see her friends.
Anyway, i got away from it since i misplacedthe important document that was supposed to be given to them. So in the end, i didnt even turn up for a single lesson.
But well, on the bright side, i wouldnt havehugemuscles and broad shoulders like them, or I may not even be in jurong secondary school today now, with so much memories that i wouldnt want to miss out on.
Moving on.
China's leading and should anyone have any doubt about that?
Maybe you did have, but i saw that coming.
I saw the men preliminaries. I thought i liked the guy from japan. He really stunned me when he was on the Pommel Horse.
Suchcleanmovements! Moreover, his single leg work are very distinct. You could see so clearly that his legs are higher than 90 degrees unlike some who were brushing near the pommel horse, well, they didnt do too well obviously.Nevertheless, he did a terrible mistake.
Losing his momentum, it's difficult to score well .
Oh! There was another! From china i think?
I fare pretty well on the parallel bars.
16.125 was his score if i remember correctly, maybe higher.
Well, did have mistakes so obvious that a - i dont know anything about this at first- know that he did one.
But his routine was stunningly amazing. Now, i didnt regret putting my books aside for awhile to watch the games. It's worthwhile.
Yeah. Disappointments here and there, but you never know whether it's the the pushing factor for you huh?
Oh! I going to catch my next round of gymnastics on the television. Oh! The tennis as well.
Why golf isnt counted!?
Pardon me. ==
Okay! Got to go! Bye!
Nations Birthday!
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Okay. The birthday greetings came late, but oh well...
This year, there wasnt much of a "SG birthday' mood/atmosphere.
Hello? Who's the culprit uh?
laughs.
The school decided not to celebrate our nations' birthday.
Well, maybe they thought they did.
By means of celebration meant that selected uniform group students brought the nation's flag marching out. end.
If they call that a celebration, then tell me, how do you weigh the importance of the nation's birthday with a scouts' or girl guide day?
Sorry if offended anyone.
I'm not saying that scouts/girl guides day is not important.
Its just that every year, you can witness how they school celebrates the nation's birthday right?
At least a whole uniform group unit march of some sort? Yet there wasnt.
If the school has their reasons for doing so, then i hope they really do explain clearly cause i feel that many students are in a whirl and unhappy. well at least thats what i thought.
I mean. look. asap? until 4pm. who wouldnt complain? ==
nevermind. It's over. I shan't dampen the mood any further.
Singapore's a nice place to stay in, but i prefer australia.
US? i wouldnt mind either.
And my goal of being a vet and going to australia. huh. I'm killing two birds with a stone yea?
haha.
My goal wouldnt change. At least for the moment.
Even if i change my mind of being a vet, i still stand firmly on going to australia or US.
I wouldnt mind the 'broken hole' laughs.
Hey, maybe Venice would be nice.
Slow pace of life. I simply adore that.
Things would be mundane, but hey, you can take all things slowly at a time.
Like who will rush you, like people do to Weijian.
Enjoy life, that's my ultimate goal.
Similar to my oral topic given for my prelims.
Why should we be too stressed up with so much things? We should take a small breaths in between.
Ultimaltely, with such a short life span compared to organisms like turtles where their life span is measured as long as decades or centuries, we live to die.
Some may say that that is a sadistic way of thinking, but to me, it could be a way or encouraging oneself.
If we huamn live to die, then shouldnt we make our lives as interesting as possible?
Fulfill what we want and die with no regrets.
The worst is with regrets. I hope i dont.
Yet an irony, we know in this realistic world, it's hard.
We may not feel the full swing of this complex world, but we're getting there.
As teenagers, in comparison to our kiddy life, in comparison to our primary school life, how much have changed?
In terms of friends and the likes and dislikes?
Everything seems to vary and at times, you just may not feel like your old self.
Your old self as in the innocent and fun-loving kid you were once.
People change as time passes by and it's also very hard to see through them.
Maybe, i should just shut this first and get my sleep.
I'm knackered! =/
Good night. Sweet dreams (:
Okay. The birthday greetings came late, but oh well...
This year, there wasnt much of a "SG birthday' mood/atmosphere.
Hello? Who's the culprit uh?
laughs.
The school decided not to celebrate our nations' birthday.
Well, maybe they thought they did.
By means of celebration meant that selected uniform group students brought the nation's flag marching out. end.
If they call that a celebration, then tell me, how do you weigh the importance of the nation's birthday with a scouts' or girl guide day?
Sorry if offended anyone.
I'm not saying that scouts/girl guides day is not important.
Its just that every year, you can witness how they school celebrates the nation's birthday right?
At least a whole uniform group unit march of some sort? Yet there wasnt.
If the school has their reasons for doing so, then i hope they really do explain clearly cause i feel that many students are in a whirl and unhappy. well at least thats what i thought.
I mean. look. asap? until 4pm. who wouldnt complain? ==
nevermind. It's over. I shan't dampen the mood any further.
Singapore's a nice place to stay in, but i prefer australia.
US? i wouldnt mind either.
And my goal of being a vet and going to australia. huh. I'm killing two birds with a stone yea?
haha.
My goal wouldnt change. At least for the moment.
Even if i change my mind of being a vet, i still stand firmly on going to australia or US.
I wouldnt mind the 'broken hole' laughs.
Hey, maybe Venice would be nice.
Slow pace of life. I simply adore that.
Things would be mundane, but hey, you can take all things slowly at a time.
Like who will rush you, like people do to Weijian.
Enjoy life, that's my ultimate goal.
Similar to my oral topic given for my prelims.
Why should we be too stressed up with so much things? We should take a small breaths in between.
Ultimaltely, with such a short life span compared to organisms like turtles where their life span is measured as long as decades or centuries, we live to die.
Some may say that that is a sadistic way of thinking, but to me, it could be a way or encouraging oneself.
If we huamn live to die, then shouldnt we make our lives as interesting as possible?
Fulfill what we want and die with no regrets.
The worst is with regrets. I hope i dont.
Yet an irony, we know in this realistic world, it's hard.
We may not feel the full swing of this complex world, but we're getting there.
As teenagers, in comparison to our kiddy life, in comparison to our primary school life, how much have changed?
In terms of friends and the likes and dislikes?
Everything seems to vary and at times, you just may not feel like your old self.
Your old self as in the innocent and fun-loving kid you were once.
People change as time passes by and it's also very hard to see through them.
Maybe, i should just shut this first and get my sleep.
I'm knackered! =/
Good night. Sweet dreams (:
Dance
Like I've promised. ;D
3years ago...
A girl was given a choice that she didnt choose.
That girl didnt give up and persisted on what she wanted.
She got what she wanted.
and she want to thank her friends who helped her and kept her going all along
Without her friends and family, she would be a hollow shell without the pearl ,of no value.
2years ago...& 1year ago
She was dancing with her dancemates and seniors.
Sharing&treasuring every moment she has, trying to make the best out of it.
Perhaps it may not turn out to be what she wanted.
Perhaps it may be just a dream come true at times.
There, came the batch of seniors who stepped down, and there went her being the co-welfare coordinator.
There came the SYF dance practices, and there went the SYF dance performance.
Everyone was in disappoinment. So was her.
That wasnt what she wanted, so were they.
Or... 'Is it that we set the goals too high?'
Or... 'Is it that the judges were biased?'
Or... 'Is it that we didnt do well enough? But... I knew we did!'
Maybe that's just to console oneself.
Perhaps that was just to make her feel better.
But if that was to console herself...then...
'Why did we get invited to the SYF opening ceromony?'
'Why did we get invited to perform for Ballet Under The Stars?'
'Why did we get represent Singapore to perform for the Suadi Arabia Scholars for their welcoming dinner & many many more...?'
Well... I didnt know how to answer her. Perhaps she was right.
There came another batch of seniors who stepped down, and there went her being the Chairman of dance.
This year.
She stood with her dancemates.
They saw many differences.
It was her most important year.
She knew she was knackered yet she knew she had to hang in there.
At times the paintings she had in mind hanged askew on the piece of wall that was brushed white and everyone was there to adjust the painting back in place.
She wants to thank every single one of them.
She meant it. Or rather, she means it.
Not long later, like her seniors, she stepped down with her batchmates and a new batch of commitee is formed.
Then, she realised she adores her time with them.
She adores the time she gets to perform on stage.
She realised how difficult it is for her to hold back her tears when she knew that her friend cried because her batch is stepping down.
Yet she did hold it back.
She realised it was also hard for her to come to senses that her usual tuesday and friday cca routine ends and is overtaken by her school curiculum.
It was difficult for her as well to not think of dance on tuesdays and fridays but studies.
She knew she had to overcome it somehow and she's trying her very best.
To her, dance is therapeutic.
Here leaves her thanks to many many people.
Teachers, friends and family.
Thanks!
Thank you everyone.
I love you guys. ;D
3years ago...
A girl was given a choice that she didnt choose.
That girl didnt give up and persisted on what she wanted.
She got what she wanted.
and she want to thank her friends who helped her and kept her going all along
Without her friends and family, she would be a hollow shell without the pearl ,of no value.
2years ago...& 1year ago
She was dancing with her dancemates and seniors.
Sharing&treasuring every moment she has, trying to make the best out of it.
Perhaps it may not turn out to be what she wanted.
Perhaps it may be just a dream come true at times.
There, came the batch of seniors who stepped down, and there went her being the co-welfare coordinator.
There came the SYF dance practices, and there went the SYF dance performance.
Everyone was in disappoinment. So was her.
That wasnt what she wanted, so were they.
Or... 'Is it that we set the goals too high?'
Or... 'Is it that the judges were biased?'
Or... 'Is it that we didnt do well enough? But... I knew we did!'
Maybe that's just to console oneself.
Perhaps that was just to make her feel better.
But if that was to console herself...then...
'Why did we get invited to the SYF opening ceromony?'
'Why did we get invited to perform for Ballet Under The Stars?'
'Why did we get represent Singapore to perform for the Suadi Arabia Scholars for their welcoming dinner & many many more...?'
Well... I didnt know how to answer her. Perhaps she was right.
There came another batch of seniors who stepped down, and there went her being the Chairman of dance.
This year.
She stood with her dancemates.
They saw many differences.
It was her most important year.
She knew she was knackered yet she knew she had to hang in there.
At times the paintings she had in mind hanged askew on the piece of wall that was brushed white and everyone was there to adjust the painting back in place.
She wants to thank every single one of them.
She meant it. Or rather, she means it.
Not long later, like her seniors, she stepped down with her batchmates and a new batch of commitee is formed.
Then, she realised she adores her time with them.
She adores the time she gets to perform on stage.
She realised how difficult it is for her to hold back her tears when she knew that her friend cried because her batch is stepping down.
Yet she did hold it back.
She realised it was also hard for her to come to senses that her usual tuesday and friday cca routine ends and is overtaken by her school curiculum.
It was difficult for her as well to not think of dance on tuesdays and fridays but studies.
She knew she had to overcome it somehow and she's trying her very best.
To her, dance is therapeutic.
Here leaves her thanks to many many people.
Teachers, friends and family.
Thanks!
Thank you everyone.
I love you guys. ;D
Saturday, August 02, 2008
Whuuta day~
Today was...
Fun in a way that i we had our "name" hand-madeeeeeeed?
laughs.Such irony.
Specially made by me!HuiRong and Kaien!
Yeah! We rock! =x
Laughs.
Oh god! I love you!
Im going golfing with dad and brother tomorrow.
And i'll look like an idiot with that long-lost friend- if your're wondering, its the the golf club - that i didnt touch for years.
laugh at me! =/
no. i'm laughing at myself! hahahahhhh!
I'm so darn an idiot now. rahhhH!
I think I'm trying to make myself feel a little better. What's the harm anyway.
People around are like!?!
How many did we see at the taman jurong greens? Four? Five? I suppose! Idk!
Hahaha! Maybe it's time to get used to it. Perhaps I'll see it more often in future.
ugh. I hate this. anyway.
My Laptop is back!
In good working condition~
i've downloaded the private server!
OK fine. not meeee!
and dad did it personally for me?! hahahhh! It's lame, i dont deny.
But hey, it's my way of relaxing. hohoho. It makes treasure my time with it since school's rather hectic. okay. mundane it may get.
Nevertheless, Life still have to go on. oh ya!
I want my precious sleeping hours.
Ohman. LIke how many days in a week do i get to sleep well. NONE.
even weekends.
i may sleep at 2am and wake up automatically at 8am!
Wth is wrong with me!. i wantmy sleep!
Now myfriends are saying my mum look young.
And what's with her claiming me old,resulting in the fact that people think she's young!
?!!#%
lol.?
hahahh!
No lurh. Mother i believe you did a good job in keeping your skin smooth and supple. yeah.
- i hope so- =x
Anyway, she's funny. She think she is.
i think we are. Let's say i'm not in the best condition todat. I'm mad! =/
Gotta go!
Fun in a way that i we had our "name" hand-madeeeeeeed?
laughs.Such irony.
Specially made by me!HuiRong and Kaien!
Yeah! We rock! =x
Laughs.
Oh god! I love you!
Im going golfing with dad and brother tomorrow.
And i'll look like an idiot with that long-lost friend- if your're wondering, its the the golf club - that i didnt touch for years.
laugh at me! =/
no. i'm laughing at myself! hahahahhhh!
I'm so darn an idiot now. rahhhH!
I think I'm trying to make myself feel a little better. What's the harm anyway.
People around are like!?!
How many did we see at the taman jurong greens? Four? Five? I suppose! Idk!
Hahaha! Maybe it's time to get used to it. Perhaps I'll see it more often in future.
ugh. I hate this. anyway.
My Laptop is back!
In good working condition~
i've downloaded the private server!
OK fine. not meeee!
and dad did it personally for me?! hahahhh! It's lame, i dont deny.
But hey, it's my way of relaxing. hohoho. It makes treasure my time with it since school's rather hectic. okay. mundane it may get.
Nevertheless, Life still have to go on. oh ya!
I want my precious sleeping hours.
Ohman. LIke how many days in a week do i get to sleep well. NONE.
even weekends.
i may sleep at 2am and wake up automatically at 8am!
Wth is wrong with me!. i wantmy sleep!
Now myfriends are saying my mum look young.
And what's with her claiming me old,resulting in the fact that people think she's young!
?!!#%
lol.?
hahahh!
No lurh. Mother i believe you did a good job in keeping your skin smooth and supple. yeah.
- i hope so- =x
Anyway, she's funny. She think she is.
i think we are. Let's say i'm not in the best condition todat. I'm mad! =/
Gotta go!
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